Random Update

Ahhhhhh.........for the first time in weeks I can finally sit and try to post.
What a long journey these last 3 months have been.
We are still without a house, but we are getting close.  We have found one we both really like.
The orginal house from an earlier post, someone out bid us, but unfortunately for them, their loan fell thru.
At this time we've found something that is more us probably.
Just a 3 bedroom ranch, but it has a sun/florida room the full length of the back of the house.
We will see soon enough.  The lady who owns it, is moving out, so we would be able to move in quickly.

Finally getting adjusted to the new job at work.  I like it a lot better than where I was.  Of course it has things that I miss from the old one, but I love the lady I work with and sometimes that is ALOT!!
I am sure when I get back in a routine you will be hearing more about Ms Linda.

Since the post in July I have started making a lot of changes within myself.  Something just woke up in me I guess, and decided I didn't want to be that way anymore.  Oh, I know I can't change everything, but attitude is so much of how we are.  Mine had gone sour, and then some.  I just decided it was time to be me.
I have to be honest and say that some do not like the changes.  Although they are not drastic, it is hard on people when you no longer let them control you.  Be it what you do, how you act, how you respond, or what you are.  Everyday I get up with a smile, and there it is.  Everyone else can get over it, lol.
Life is too short not to enjoy it.  I am only 33 and it's time I start acting and looking it.  Not 80.  (No offense to anyone 80 or over, I'm just not there yet)  You have two choices in life, hang on to things, or let them go.  Sometimes you can't survive unless you let them go.  I couldn't remember a time in my life I hadn't been an adult.  My Momma will even tell you she's talked to me like one since I was 3. 

Yesterday I went to see my new OB/GYN again.  Mrs. Smith just hasn't wanted to leave since about June.
He did two ultrasounds yesterday and scheduled me for a little exploratory surgery and D & C today.
I guess we have finally found the cause of my miscarrying so much.  I have two uteruses.  One is smaller than the other of course, but it still causes my pregnancy to be short.  Good to know after all this time, right?
My Momma is relieved.  Me I am no longer sure.  I wanted a baby for so long.  Now I have to ask was it me who wanted it, or did I want it for Dave and Momma?  I don't know anymore.  I don't know if it's the roller coaster I've been on for so long that I decided to take a break from, or if I truly don't want any.
I do have 2 younger brothers, a dog, and a DH, do I need the extra?? lol.
Ok, so maybe that wasn't too funny, but honestly.  It's something to think about for now.
Whatever God's plan is, is what I'll go with.  For now, until everything is resolved, I'm going on the pill to help regulate, and see about reconstructive surgery. 

Whew, that was a lot today!!
Now I am going to try and get caught up on all of you!!!


Maybe next week, I will get back into my normal weekly routine.

I just realized my blogging is getting shorter, and the amount of time I am taking for it the same.
I can't find the time to breathe right now it seems let alone blog.
I could update, but there is too much to tell.
I can't catch up with everyone elses blogs, because the thingy is so full!!!
I will though, eventually. 

Cry Baby

It seems I can't find the time to keep this up at this point.
So many reasons.
Every day I feel like it's just more and more drama over taking me and my life.
The last few months has been such a trial in it's self.
The flood, losing everything.
Losing another baby just a few weeks before that.
Family issues that I can't even start to go into.
All has left me wondering what has happened to me?

This weekend we are at Mom's staying with Nan while she and Dad are gone on a much needed mini vacation.  As I was fixing DH something to eat, I was at the fridge I looked up at all the pictures Momma has put up from over the years.
I look up and see this girl.  Who is she???  She looks fimiliar, but do I know her??
As I felt the tears start flowing down my face I realized it was me, happy.
I stood there wondering what happened to that girl?
Why has life been so tragic?  How did I end up here?  How do I fix this?
I go around looking happy, acting happy to make everyone else happy.
What about me??  How do I make me happy again?
I know there are worse situations.  People with harder way to go than me today.
Doesn't make me want to be happy anyless.
I know I must sound like a cry baby.  Can't help it, it's how I felt lately.
Since I can't tell everyone I know, why not here to people I don't? LOL.

I wanna be the carefree spunky girl I use to be.

That is my cry for the day...............

Happy 4th of July to All!

Busy weekend here.
We moved what was left of our stuff, (mainly my dishes) from Brandi's to the Church yesterday, while it felt like it was a 110 with humidity at the same level.  Then later we drove to Greenup to a birthday party for Jamie.  He is 4.  It was a lot of fun.  We were able to just relax and spend some good quality time with some friends and relax.  I had almost forgotten what that is like.

Hope everyone is have a great long weekend!!

Random Update

Not having internet is hard on a blogger.
Not only can you not blog, but it is impossible to keep up with everyone elses blogs.
I think I am caught up on about half now.
If you are not seeing comments from me that you regularly would, know I am still reading, I probably don't have as much time to leave comments trying to keep up, but soon, very soon!
(I hope).

Anywho.......we are still homeless, but have been looking at this house.

It is an early 1900's house.

It is the kind of house I have always wanted to turn into a Bed & Breakfast.

It has all the potential for it that is for sure.

The house its self is a sturdy house, but the lady who owned it before passed away over a year or more.

She was in and out of the nursing home for about 2-3yrs before that, so there is some things needed done.

She was "society" for this small podunk town it is in.

She was an entertainer, and what one would have called in her "day" an "old maid".

Never married.  She had very "unique" style.

Anyways, about the house. 

There is a formal living room in the from to the left with a fireplace that has a marble mantle.

A formal dining room, a large den with room off to the side with a jacuzzi tub in it.

A large foyer with open stairwell.  A half bath with a laundry room.  A smaller kitchen with huge pantry, an eating area.  There are closest gallore!!!

Upstairs there are three bedrooms.  It originally had 4 bedrooms.  She had converted one into a large bathroom adjacent to the master bedroom,  and the other half of it into a huge walk in closet.

The master bedroom also has a porch that was inclosed into a study.  The rooms are big.

And BRIGHT at this point.  The lady loved wallpaper.  The master bath also has a large clawfoot slipper tub.  It is fire engine red.  The room has teal carpet.  I had to question her thinking on that one.

Lots of potential.  The price could be right.  I guess we will see.

(it also has a dirt floor basement, which kind of freaks me out.  also an attic which we didn't go into)

That is the update on the house hunting.

We are still wanting to go to Norway, but it looks like it will not be for a year or two.

The weather here in Kentucky is HOT, HOT, HOT.  MUGGY, MUGGY, MUGGY!!!

I am ready for fall myself. 

Work is going ok.  Getting use to my new job.  Trying to train the new girl for my old job at the same time.

This is making for long stressful days, but I will get through it I am sure.

I can't wait.  I am ready to do just my "new" job!

I'm Backkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm back!!!

Well kind of sort of in a way.

See, we have NO INTERNET!!!  I know, is that not like one of the worst feelings? hahaha.

The only time I have access to the internet where I can actually have time to use it, is at Momma's.

So let me do a quick catch up and we'll go from there shall we????

We are still homeless from the flood.  We are staying at our Church in a nice 5th wheel camper.  Which is great, don't get me wrong, but home, well Home is Home, know what I mean??

Nannie and Josh are with Mom & Dad and since Keith is still at home, it made for very tight quarters.

We had home insurance, but not flood insurance (since we were above flood plain) so our insurance would not cover anything!!!  I mean not the first thing.  So basically we were able to salvage a few clothes, and my dishes.  It's kind of like when you are just starting out married.  Except the stress is much different, and well, it's not such a "happy" time.

We have already received some funds from FEMA would should help some but basically covers only your inside stuff such as washer, dryer, fridge, stove, etc. 

So now we are in the house looking again. 

Now that in it's self brings me back to our trip to Norway to be with the Speers. 

Who are missionaries from our Church organization. 

For several years we have had a huge burden for missions.  God has dealt with us for a long time about it.  So we finally went (to Norway) to see.  I have to honestly say when I stepped off the plane, I felt like I was home for the first time ever.  It was an amazing and odd feeling at the same time.  How can you grow up somewhere called "home" and suddenly it not feel like home? 

This now feels like home.

I cried almost the whole 24hr trip home.

I cried all day the next day.

Needless to say my Momma is not thrilled.

She is happy knowing God is calling us for a great work.

She is not happy knowing her only daughter wants to move 4,344 miles across an ocean to do it.

Now it is waiting on God to open up all the doors.

We have to find jobs before we can get a visa, which will only be good for 6months.

Then you have to continually reapply.

So in the mean time, do we buy a house?

Move closer to work, or continue to drive an hour?

So many questions, so few answers it seems.

I prayed for direction and confirmation about going/staying in Norway.

God graciously gave us both.

He just forgot to let us in on the details.

Until then, we will just wait upon the Lord.