It seems I can't find the time to keep this up at this point.
So many reasons.
Every day I feel like it's just more and more drama over taking me and my life.
The last few months has been such a trial in it's self.
The flood, losing everything.
Losing another baby just a few weeks before that.
Family issues that I can't even start to go into.
All has left me wondering what has happened to me?
This weekend we are at Mom's staying with Nan while she and Dad are gone on a much needed mini vacation. As I was fixing DH something to eat, I was at the fridge I looked up at all the pictures Momma has put up from over the years.
I look up and see this girl. Who is she??? She looks fimiliar, but do I know her??
As I felt the tears start flowing down my face I realized it was me, happy.
I stood there wondering what happened to that girl?
Why has life been so tragic? How did I end up here? How do I fix this?
I go around looking happy, acting happy to make everyone else happy.
What about me?? How do I make me happy again?
I know there are worse situations. People with harder way to go than me today.
Doesn't make me want to be happy anyless.
I know I must sound like a cry baby. Can't help it, it's how I felt lately.
Since I can't tell everyone I know, why not here to people I don't? LOL.
I wanna be the carefree spunky girl I use to be.
That is my cry for the day...............