"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind." ~~Wisdom from Dr. Seuss:


What the Heck Am I Doing with My Life???

Ever have one of those mornings you wake up wondering what in the heck you are doing with your life?
Then you roll on over and you're like oh my, what is it I'm doing??
Is it what I'm suppose to be doing?
Am I where I am suppose to be?
Is this what I "dreamed" of doing?
What happened to ME?!?!

This morning I woke up asking myself those questions, and then I rolled over, pried myself from under the covers, got ready for work, and rode for an hour there.
Today was one of "those days". 
It was a Monday.
If I could get behind, I was.
Nothing went right.
There was a full moon. 
The people proved there was.
Then on the ride home I received confirmation from the Man in the Moon.

All evening I have wondered how I got here.  This is not what I "dreamed" of. 
This is not the life I had planned. 
Or the people who are in it for that matter.
As a kid you have these big ideas and dreams that you will marry the boy you grew up with and had your first crush on.  You're going to live next door to your best friend for the rest of your life.  You'll have tea every day, cookouts together, and raise your children so that they will be "best friends" too. 
Here I am many years later, my best friend doesn't live next door (across town, and states/cities away). 
No sounds of pitter patter of the feet at my house.  I'm not married to the boy I swore in grade school would be my husband.  I never became a beautician, a pharmacist, a childrens physical therapist or the 1st NASCAR woman driver (come on now I was young didn't you want to be something extreme?).

However, I moved to a big city with a brand new husband and lived in the burbs and we survived. 
I was blessed with the opportunity to be a pharmaceutical rep which had become my dream job as an adult.  I married a man who was picked for me by God, not by me, just especially for me.
I know without a doubt he will be at home with me every night, and right there when I fall asleep.  
We are not wealthy but we are some of the riches people around.  We are truly blessed by not only a "best friend" but several "best friends".             
Even though I may wake up again tomorrow asking the same questions, and question my sanity when I arrive at work.  I know I am there for a purpose. 
But for now, could you please pray for me to come into a large sum of $$ where I don't have to work????

Just my thoughts for today.

1 comment:

Taylor said...

LOL! I will hope for a huge windfall for you. Funny how life never turns out the way you expect it to, but it's great when it's better than you expected!